Stand Your Ground!
IdeallyAidil.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
im gonna fucking rant cos im angry and upset at people
alot of things happen today and i dont know where to fuckin start. sigh. i woke up late today and bcos of that i missed my project presentation. thats totally suck balls man. im sorry boys, you know me i dont wake up on time ever right. gosh.
2ndly, my beautiful girls in my class that i love my heartmost fought. idk why but i can understand why. i didnt expect to be that brutal.but the damage is done i guess.but i will try to bond u girls again. maybe we could set aside our diffs and start new? please....
again i fought with baby because of fatinclementi6thplacebabe again. this has been happening so daily that sometimes i wanna give in and up. she gives me hell but i kept mum about it. i didnt bring her down i just kept quiet. its not fair fatin cant u see? please. if alot of ppl and i mean alot of ppl just hates seeing ur face and what more your attitude and personality, CHANGE! IF YOU CANT CHANGE PPL TO FIT YOU, THEN FUCKIN CHANGE URSELF TO FIT PPL! GOD!!! stupid or oblivious?? ARGH!!
i would also like to apologise to anissuperniceandfuckinfunnylady very much. im sorry i took away your time with fath. you should have told me anis. i really am sorry. :(
indra, dont make assumptions i know ur a strong boy just live with it and i have nothing else to say.
and to add on to the climax, my mom wrote me a very HEARTWARMING DISSAPOINTING AND HEARTBREAKING LETTER.
I WOULD TYPE THE LETTER HERE SOON.
DEEP STRESS = DEPRESSION!
Monday, February 16, 2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
Sunday, February 1, 2009
THIS BABYLICIOUS; I LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE
Your face lights up the sky on the highway. Someday, you'll share your world with me someday. You mesmerize me with diamond eyes; I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright. But I am losing all control - My mind, my heart, my body and my soul.
I've finally realised why we humans fall in love. For that every warmth in your precious hearts, for that very beat your heart halted or jumped, for that very reason you smile and you laugh, and I've found her in darkness and light. She is my cocaine and my oreo cookies. My sprite and vodka, my whisky and tonic. My brace and eagerness. Its all love. Love love love.
Your face lights up the sky on the highway. Someday, you'll share your world with me someday. You mesmerize me with diamond eyes; I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright. But I am losing all control - My mind, my heart, my body and my soul.
I've finally realised why we humans fall in love. For that every warmth in your precious hearts, for that very beat your heart halted or jumped, for that very reason you smile and you laugh, and I've found her in darkness and light. She is my cocaine and my oreo cookies. My sprite and vodka, my whisky and tonic. My brace and eagerness. Its all love. Love love love.
06/06/2008
We met late in the evening. Our first date was at the airport. Dinner and alot of communication since i didnt talk to her before nor hear her voice. I was bedazzled. Amazed. Smitten. There was something SPECIAL about this girl, i thought. Her every move was grace. Her every words were sooth music. Her every look was magical. Her every touch was heavenly. I cluttered and whisper a silent prayer before i hugged her before i took off. The hug was PHENOMENAL. Though it was 2 secs thingy. I wanted a 2nd date!
We met late in the evening. Our first date was at the airport. Dinner and alot of communication since i didnt talk to her before nor hear her voice. I was bedazzled. Amazed. Smitten. There was something SPECIAL about this girl, i thought. Her every move was grace. Her every words were sooth music. Her every look was magical. Her every touch was heavenly. I cluttered and whisper a silent prayer before i hugged her before i took off. The hug was PHENOMENAL. Though it was 2 secs thingy. I wanted a 2nd date!
12/07/2008
After lots and lots of date and something something in between, we were a bond. A relationship. A promise that we both held on for love and for each other. I love her. Everyday. Everyway. She was me. She make me me. She's my definite other half. From then on, she was part of my life. She was my life. My heart beats for her. I've never felt this connection before. Never have I experience nor taste love like this. I love you Nur Fathiah.
After lots and lots of date and something something in between, we were a bond. A relationship. A promise that we both held on for love and for each other. I love her. Everyday. Everyway. She was me. She make me me. She's my definite other half. From then on, she was part of my life. She was my life. My heart beats for her. I've never felt this connection before. Never have I experience nor taste love like this. I love you Nur Fathiah.
02/02/2009
Im here thinking about my beautiful love. Things have been great this past close 8mths. Ups and down. Kiss cry swear sulks and remorse. We've been through quite alot together. We've ventured this far and this deep and im not looking nor turning back. I love you.
"you must know. surely, you must know it was all for you. you are too generous to trifle with me. it has taught me to hope as i'd scarcely allowed myself before. if your feelings are still what they were last jun, tell me so at once. my affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. if, however, your feelings have changed, i will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and i love you. i never wish to be parted from you from this day on."
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved someone with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. I love you. I really do.
AIDIL MULISHA
3.25AM
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved someone with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. I love you. I really do.
AIDIL MULISHA
3.25AM
THIS LITTLE SISTER ; I LOVE THE MOST
i have a fucked up dad who rants and claims my life is his. he is unreasonable and he dictates my life. how can that be. bullocks! he's fuckin bullish and ignorant. he can be cool and good sometimes. but he sucks balls big time now. i couldnt take it any longer. im getting more rude to him. i dont respect him and all and we're arch enemies by nature. my mom is neutral so we shant talk about her today. he's ruining my life. yes he is. and one day he will regret it. he strips me monthly to check whether i have tattoos man! where's the bloody trust. get out of my fucken life man. dude you had a niggly past and if i ever follow ur bloody footstep is my a fault and not yours. my late grandma said im turning out to be like him, cant stay home rebelious and headstrong. cunt i couldnt care less. cos this is my life not yours. time i make my stand and make myself count. asshole!
and a brighter note. how are u bloke doing? good. nice. haha lame o lame o.
PHOTOGRAPHY
I was doing Leha's sister engagement on saturday. Was a blast. From F1 to Simple Landscape Shoots now to Wedding Photography! Nice. I want to gather as many experience i have and i want to fly high baby. I was struggling abit with the lightings cos my SPEEDLITE gave me shadows. I'll work something up. I will. More to come for this aspiring cum going to be succesful p/grapher.
Notice I dont publish not share my pictures cos i dont have the time to man. I know alot of ppl have photoblogs to show off their splendid and screw ups skills but dude, i dont care.