it's a bittersweet symphony this life

fuck

2009-06-02T22:34:00.000-07:00

FUCKIN CUNT YOU LIL BASTARD OLD FAG ANNIE SOON FUCKFACE! I WAS 15 MINS LATE FOR YOUR FUCKIN CLASS AND YOU REFERRED ME STRAIGHT TO THE SECTION HEAD. TAMMY CAME IN CLASS 1 HOUR FUCKIN LATE AND YOU FUCKIN LET HER SEAT BESIDE YOUR BLOODY DESK AND DIDNT EVEN FUCKIN REPRIMAND HER. YOU EVEN WENT THROUGH THE NOTES WITH HER. FUCKING DIE MUTHAFUCKER! YOU IDIOT. FUCK YOU AND YOUR FUCKIN DIGNITY FOR YOU HAVE NONE YOU BASTARD. FUCK OFF FUCKIN WANKER ANNIE SOON!

DIE ANNIE DIE MOTHERUCKER BASTARD FUCKING CUNT LITTLE PIECE OF SHIT!

2009-05-13T06:05:00.000-07:00

enjoy

2009-05-07T07:35:00.000-07:00

SIMPLE UPDATES

- work's fun
- new people fun
- new work environment fun
- work tired
- sch tired
- need cash
- time running out for everything
-bought time from e-bay
-happy
- tired
-hungry
- fags running out
- fags expensive
- weekend burned
- yay monday holiday
- no i dont have KTM (YET!)
- feel like shit cos arsenal lost
- too much to do in school
- FUCK the teachers who chase me due to my attendance FUCK YOU LAR
- basically that all and keep them tags comin through
- MOOD ,LAZY!

2009-04-23T07:51:00.001-07:00

its 11pm now. its late and its dark and im lonely.
im going off to lot 1 mcdonalds now to have my dinner alone.

wish you were there.

love,
Aidil.Mulisha

Damn,

2009-04-19T01:38:00.000-07:00

I was suppose to go out with Bart, Kojek for football at Al-Majlis but someone wanted to go somewhere else. So i was alright with it. I'm so sure you mouth will wag as I left you guys for Hejazi and friends. Whatever dude. I wanted to watch Arsenal Chelsea. You're neither the fan of the all london affair so I could understand in the change of plans. It was sucky though. Luckily enough, I met them Bhai Council people and I managed to swift through Al-Majlis with ease because Hejazi 'owns' the bloody place so yeah. I felt important for once. I felt cool. Shit balls Arsenal lost but pretty much I had an awesome night with them lads. Did i tell you I rode Imran's African Twin 750 yesterday to Al-Azhar from Arab Street? It was powerful!! It was amazing. Adrenalin Rush!

I'm sorry Kojek Bart Minah Fareed I didn't join you guys.
Thanks Jazi Yan Husnul Imran Kak Ain Fathiah for the wonderful time!

There goes my sunday.

dude

2009-04-17T08:26:00.000-07:00

NEWSFLASH : and yes i took out the dreadlocks due to school.

i pretty dont have any idea on what to blog about. so what do you guys wanna hear?
recap to everything i did so far would be good!

9 april -11 april 2009
Starring: Adam,Emma,Kak Nya,Ali,Imran,Ayim,Kak Ain,Jazzi,Yan,Tabr,Penyu,Ali,Shamsul and ME!

I was at turnhouse rd off netheravon road at the yacht club bungalows for Adam's chalet! IT WAS THE BEST 3 DAYS EVER! Upon arriving there i was greeted by the loud sub woofers because them lads were playing FIFA 2009 ON PLAYSTATION 3 THROUGH THE FUCKIN PROJECTOR! SWEET! We had 4 controllers and we had a blast! Then we moved on to GUITAR HEROES, we played as a band because we had the guitar, bass, drum set and mic! It was top notch! Hell i had so much fun. I had so so so so so so much fun! The next day was even better! Fathiah came for the party and she stayed over. The theme was : AMERICAN BAD ASS BIKER.
Almost 80% were diligently donning what the theme requires them too. KUDOS! Adam never fail to make his party a milestone every year! Good on you mate. As more people came, we took turns to play GUITAR HEROES and Fathiah loves it when i sing LA BAM BA! Hahahaha. Kudos to everyone la. I SALUTE YOU. YOU GUYS BEST FUN LIKE HELL!
Pictures will be up soon i promise!

12 April 2009
Had a chillax Sunday with prettylove at Breko at Bugis. It was nice and simple and fun! I love you.

13 April 2009
School starts. Them first years have more cocks than pussy. I hate school. 9 teachers came up to me today and pointed out my very very envious and nice hair. They say i have to take it out. I say FUCK YOU.

14 April 2009
I took out my dreadlocks today, my mother helped me undo my hair. Thanks mother. Im sad. I love my hair. I cut it short after that. Now i look like a primary school boy. Takpe, FATHIAH SAID I LOOK OKAY. So I feel better. Burrsrssstttt!

15 April 2009
I applied a job at the Night Safari with Sue and Kojek. The environment's very scary. The people there are very unfriendly. Its okay, im there to work sincerely and earn cash. As long as nobody put pebbles on my ricebowl, i won't kill you. I hope i get the job. Thanks Ally!

Today
Adam text me saying if I ever wanted to party today. OF COURSE! Sadly plan cancel. Its okay.
TMR ARSENAL VS CHELSEA! Come on GUNNERS!!!!!!!!

Thats All. World's for the loving stop them hatings.

lallallallallalal

2009-04-16T07:52:00.000-07:00

i is dont know what to blog about today.
till my next post, sorry peeps.

regards to playing with fire

2009-04-09T10:02:00.000-07:00

*bismillahhirrahmannirahhim*

im here in a remote part in singapore off changi village hanging out without the maryjanes i ordered. supposed to get high but instead im here thinking about an incident that happen just now.

i got a called from an angry being just now rambling and cursing at me through the phone. and yes i admit i played with fire. but i played it with caution i swore but prolly its getting out of hands now. i donnoe whats gonna happen to me next; prolly he'd beat the crap out of me. to prevent things i will just swallow the bitter pill and i want to get back on my feet and get back on track. haish. i mean im sorry to whoever i offend but i really know i did cross the line but im sorry mister. i really am. and to your missus, i promise i wont bother her nor you anymore. i respect both of you and i dont want any trouble. im still a boy and i make mistakes. i know your pissed mad at me. but im waving the white flag now.

IM WAVING THE WHITE FLAG NOW.
I DONT WANT NO TROUBLE! YARRRRRRRRR!!!!

2009-04-07T09:36:00.000-07:00

i had a blast with HASAN SPARKS at Marina Barrage just now. That kid just bought a DSLR and i wanted to flaunt the FISHEYE lense. fancy though. pictures will be up soon.

THURSDAY FRIDAY SATURDAY- I plan to party like fuck but i promise no FISHYLOVE! School starts this MONDAY and i will again play hide and seek with them bastards teachers for my hair is dreaded. will i succeed? YES/NO!

My grades have been a drastically GOOD/BAD!
Entrepreneurship A
Principles of Marketing F
Business Communication Skills C
Lifeskills (wtf!) Excellent

GPA : 1.7
Last Sem GPA : 1.3

OKAY WHAT!!!!!!!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAA!
Crap shit!

Shopping list for Adam's Party Bash(theme is AMERICAN BAD ASS BIKER) :
-black sleeveless shirt
-leather pants
-leather boots
-black bandana
-chains
-aviators
-fake tattoos
-jack danials whiskey
-gordon's gin
-tonics
-condoms(trojan lubricated) optional [kidding la]
-harley davidson 50cc
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

thinking of you

2009-04-06T09:08:00.000-07:00

i've been pretty angry with the nitty gritty little things lately and i dont know why. i know you have been the victim and im deeply sorry. PMS i guess.

i've deicded to get back on facebook cos i dont wanna be left behind. it has been eons since i touch it.

this week would be a blast. adam's chalet/party! i wanna go all out before sch starts!

yeah!!

2009-04-05T10:37:00.000-07:00

everyday we hustlin' hustlin...
i need a job. really. ape2 ah! babysitter ke cleaner ke anything ah! i broke ass nigga now. help. anyone.
my mother is ranting like an old hen because ive been asking for money only. sucks la i feel like im living off her likedat. cannot ah like this, i got a daughter to feed you know(like real!).

ah malas ah nak update.
Aidil is currently facing a phase call bingit gila nak mampos. please bear with him.

playa popcorn

2009-03-30T23:05:00.000-07:00

to ashraf aka abang boy lover we need to meet up soon i know you or your missus will be reading this cos' sometimes people bother. me and jane would love to meet you up and settle this misunderstanding once and for all.
aku tau aku buat salah atleast aku own up rather than kau buat salah pat aku kau buat bodoh sampai skarang. sorry ah brother, im just sick and tired of you using me to cover up for all the things you did ah. sampai ramai orang affected. this got to stop prior to advices from jane ahmad rahman and myself. it sucks k. give me a holla. kalau aku call tolong angkat, jgn kasi reason nad pat sebelah ke ape. pls. thanks.

2009-03-29T01:28:00.000-07:00

2009-03-19T09:53:00.000-07:00

ya lar its extensions! stupid or what you!
if you have a problem with my hair, wait til you see my pubes!
haha sucker!

2009-03-15T09:17:00.000-07:00

FDFDFD

2009-02-18T10:06:00.000-08:00

im gonna fucking rant cos im angry and upset at people

alot of things happen today and i dont know where to fuckin start. sigh. i woke up late today and bcos of that i missed my project presentation. thats totally suck balls man. im sorry boys, you know me i dont wake up on time ever right. gosh.

2ndly, my beautiful girls in my class that i love my heartmost fought. idk why but i can understand why. i didnt expect to be that brutal.but the damage is done i guess.but i will try to bond u girls again. maybe we could set aside our diffs and start new? please....

again i fought with baby because of fatinclementi6thplacebabe again. this has been happening so daily that sometimes i wanna give in and up. she gives me hell but i kept mum about it. i didnt bring her down i just kept quiet. its not fair fatin cant u see? please. if alot of ppl and i mean alot of ppl just hates seeing ur face and what more your attitude and personality, CHANGE! IF YOU CANT CHANGE PPL TO FIT YOU, THEN FUCKIN CHANGE URSELF TO FIT PPL! GOD!!! stupid or oblivious?? ARGH!!

i would also like to apologise to anissuperniceandfuckinfunnylady very much. im sorry i took away your time with fath. you should have told me anis. i really am sorry. :(

indra, dont make assumptions i know ur a strong boy just live with it and i have nothing else to say.

and to add on to the climax, my mom wrote me a very HEARTWARMING DISSAPOINTING AND HEARTBREAKING LETTER.
I WOULD TYPE THE LETTER HERE SOON.

DEEP STRESS = DEPRESSION!

2009-02-16T09:01:00.000-08:00

2009-02-11T07:22:00.000-08:00

EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!
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EXTREME INSOMNIA!
EXTREME INSOMNIA!

2009-02-01T11:30:00.000-08:00

THIS BABYLICIOUS; I LOVE MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE
Your face lights up the sky on the highway. Someday, you'll share your world with me someday. You mesmerize me with diamond eyes; I try to fool myself to think I'll be alright. But I am losing all control - My mind, my heart, my body and my soul.
I've finally realised why we humans fall in love. For that every warmth in your precious hearts, for that very beat your heart halted or jumped, for that very reason you smile and you laugh, and I've found her in darkness and light. She is my cocaine and my oreo cookies. My sprite and vodka, my whisky and tonic. My brace and eagerness. Its all love. Love love love.

06/06/2008
We met late in the evening. Our first date was at the airport. Dinner and alot of communication since i didnt talk to her before nor hear her voice. I was bedazzled. Amazed. Smitten. There was something SPECIAL about this girl, i thought. Her every move was grace. Her every words were sooth music. Her every look was magical. Her every touch was heavenly. I cluttered and whisper a silent prayer before i hugged her before i took off. The hug was PHENOMENAL. Though it was 2 secs thingy. I wanted a 2nd date!

12/07/2008
After lots and lots of date and something something in between, we were a bond. A relationship. A promise that we both held on for love and for each other. I love her. Everyday. Everyway. She was me. She make me me. She's my definite other half. From then on, she was part of my life. She was my life. My heart beats for her. I've never felt this connection before. Never have I experience nor taste love like this. I love you Nur Fathiah.

02/02/2009
Im here thinking about my beautiful love. Things have been great this past close 8mths. Ups and down. Kiss cry swear sulks and remorse. We've been through quite alot together. We've ventured this far and this deep and im not looking nor turning back. I love you.

"you must know. surely, you must know it was all for you. you are too generous to trifle with me. it has taught me to hope as i'd scarcely allowed myself before. if your feelings are still what they were last jun, tell me so at once. my affections and wishes have not changed, but one word from you will silence me forever. if, however, your feelings have changed, i will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and i love you. i never wish to be parted from you from this day on."
The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I am nothing special; just a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten. But in one respect I have succeeded as gloriously as anyone who's ever lived: I've loved someone with all my heart and soul; and to me, this has always been enough. I love you. I really do.
AIDIL MULISHA
3.25AM

journal

2009-02-01T10:25:00.000-08:00

THIS LITTLE SISTER ; I LOVE THE MOST

i have a fucked up dad who rants and claims my life is his. he is unreasonable and he dictates my life. how can that be. bullocks! he's fuckin bullish and ignorant. he can be cool and good sometimes. but he sucks balls big time now. i couldnt take it any longer. im getting more rude to him. i dont respect him and all and we're arch enemies by nature. my mom is neutral so we shant talk about her today. he's ruining my life. yes he is. and one day he will regret it. he strips me monthly to check whether i have tattoos man! where's the bloody trust. get out of my fucken life man. dude you had a niggly past and if i ever follow ur bloody footstep is my a fault and not yours. my late grandma said im turning out to be like him, cant stay home rebelious and headstrong. cunt i couldnt care less. cos this is my life not yours. time i make my stand and make myself count. asshole!

and a brighter note. how are u bloke doing? good. nice. haha lame o lame o.

PHOTOGRAPHY

I was doing Leha's sister engagement on saturday. Was a blast. From F1 to Simple Landscape Shoots now to Wedding Photography! Nice. I want to gather as many experience i have and i want to fly high baby. I was struggling abit with the lightings cos my SPEEDLITE gave me shadows. I'll work something up. I will. More to come for this aspiring cum going to be succesful p/grapher.

Notice I dont publish not share my pictures cos i dont have the time to man. I know alot of ppl have photoblogs to show off their splendid and screw ups skills but dude, i dont care.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY HASAN SPARK!!!!!

2009-01-29T12:06:00.000-08:00

i miss this little princess

secret

2009-01-29T11:55:00.000-08:00

go ahead tell the world i got cheap vespa! secret secret!

im tinkering hard again. got a call from the organiser saying i made for the interview for the hunks contest in my school. time and time again ive countlessly repeated myself that i dont wanna join this contest. i brad pitt or what?! im not even close to master yoda sia. haha. nice or what. cipet!! well i know i sign up but i waas forced!

i want to tell you how lame guys in my school can get. when they are ask why they join the competition, this is what 99% said :

1) for fun my fren ask to join.

2) for fun wanna try see got luck anot

3) my fren force me sia to join kanasai!

4) i have always been an aspiring model and i want to be famous like beckham (more like blackham!)

and this what i wrote for the why i joined this competiton :

I join this contest to prove that hunks need not be prettyboys with nice body. A hunk is somewhat someone who has confidence and good self esteem. Someone who can lead and has interesting personality. Has charm and charisma. Someone down to earth and humble. Someone whom people look up to. Which is definetely me! I want to prove that average Joe's like me can definitely thrive in this mini contest. LONG LIVE SHREK!!

see creativity rules man. you guys need not agree with the fuck i wrote down. fuck spider and die.

all the best to all the prettyboys in my school. balls and gay!

2009-01-28T11:04:00.000-08:00

Hello tonight looks like another insomnia night again. Hey how do I look? HAHA!

Im working and schooling tmr meaning i should prolly call it a night but theres football at 4am might stay up and watch. should i sleep or what huh?

today played yo momma jokes with everyone in school and it was a blast. im an idiot. more like bam margera but the not so daredevil type but i'll try hard enough to make it. school food is getting suckier each day. subway and nasi lemak power is opening at clementi mrt which is near to school. means subway loves like me fathiah anis and hasan would acknowledge and look up for. nice or what! and maybe i can give indralemak his well deserved nasi lemak soon. wait for it okay idiot.

look i have a huge problem. i need help so please do drop me a tag and tell me which should i choose.
1. Hunk Contest
2.Be the photographer for the contest and event itself

yes my school is organising a hunk and babe contest for valentines and my mates want me in. fuck shit man! do i look like a hunk? maybe my gf thinks i am but i dont think everyone must agree with her. like i rather do something im good at like photography or something right? hahahaha. idk. im still lost. help me on this.

a sexciting weekend waits ahead.
i so cant wait!!!!!

a very beautiful post

2009-01-27T00:19:00.000-08:00

This adorable ravishing girl over here is the most manja-ful, naughty-ful, and everything i ever need ever!! I love you. My thank yous will never end cos you'll never stop making me say that so thank you baby for everything!

I had a fucking good long weekend! Friday/Saturday/Sunday/Monday/Tuesday. Nice or what!

Friday naughty little secret with baby then dinner.

Saturday dinner and then naughty little secret with baby then met bart 'vespaboy' then went cck to meet the gilera gang then off to supper.

Sunday met san srul sha and lydia for a chillaxing good time at starbucks!

Monday was the climax! Went cycling at ECP with babybushuk then met mama and aliaa!! Finally babybushuk met Aliaalagibushuk! They both like bestfriends! ME LIKEY!

Tuesday is still laggin but im sure i will have fun like loads cos tmr back to sch and my english today sucks ah sorry malas nak update tapi so what i am a rockstar! hahs lame shit.

bye

2009-01-22T10:04:00.000-08:00

We're not gay! But we're fucking lazy bastards!

sheesh

2009-01-21T06:29:00.000-08:00

Late nights and reoccurring nightmares

Do nothing to help me overcome these insecurities

Have I imagine this would be happening my world came crumbling down

Cause a few years ago I give you my all

Not worrying if I made a huge mistake And my instinct let me down,

A crumpled state of mind that resurrects me

And so a solitary life waits ahead

Im not used to this and im crying out loud

The remnants of the past keeps creeping up on me

The lullaby you sing sound haunting every time

The mirror sings back at me

I know it’s hard for me to say it happen long ago

But memories etched and I forgive but not forget I’m so torn at all the seams

I’m trying hard to mend it back

Do you ever care when I need you, you're never there

So much for all the promises

a solitary life waits ahead

Solitary-20DC

boy oh boy. one after another. i need my escape. fast!

Palestine

2009-01-18T05:47:00.000-08:00

what do you reckoned? what do you seek? hope? peace? harmony?

all you hope for is lost. forsaken. day by day, this poor souls fight to see the light again. not knowing when is their next meal? will they ever see their mothers, fathers, siblings and loved ones again? think. take a second. put yourself in their shoes. what would you do? run? fight? hide? they can't answer. but they can pray. their hope dangles on a string. their heartbeat limits as precious seconds run out. what brings to the future of those young palestiniens? all is taken by cruel men. men taking whats not theirs. never satisfied for what they have. long has this war begun. and they will not stop until every single one crumble.

what if this happens to you? what if?

my prayers will always be with you my brothers and sisters.

may you rest in peace in the kingdom of heaven.

aidil 2201hrs

archers

2009-01-16T05:44:00.000-08:00

i miss nur fathiah like nobody's business.

im going to meet adam in a few minutes to play footie a fico! sexcited! its been awhile since i kicked a moffo ball. wheeeee.

its mayday mayday so go listen to the fray!

all to lose

2009-01-15T06:02:00.000-08:00

dear egocentric, egoistical, egomaniacal, egotistical, self-absorbed, self-centered, self-involved, selfish, self-seeking, self-serving you nasty bollywood diva,

i am very abhorred, appalled, displeased, fastidious, fed up, full up, grossed out, had bellyful, had enough, had it, nauseated, nauseous, outraged, overwrought, queasy, repelled, repulsed, revolted, satiated, scandalized, sick, sick and tired of, sick of, squeamish, teed off, tired, turned off, unhappy, with regards of your action. you have once again stick your bloody hands on my life. on my relationship. yeah thats what i think. you can beg to differ if you want to. yeah.

you're influential. and you sucks. just now you gave me the face. I'VE HAD IT! i thought you're nice but you're rotten then i gave you a chance but still once you're black you're never gonna do a michael jackson. i've taken every shit that you've thrown at and i didn't say a thing about it. dont make me come at you you fuckin' ebony!

hey you petty grouch! my thank yous and sorrys are never fucken meant for you. and you dont have to be all round petty okay. come on. be intellectual. you dont lower yourself down. yeah, your facial expressions makes me sick in my stomach, it growls fouls! and i believe people have abide you long enough. til some poor souls cant take your foul self they have to get away from their comfort zone.

back at you; up yours pakibastard!
we dont need your bollywood antics drama-mama!
GO AWAY. FAR AWAY.
keep your hands and mind off my girl.

world, i've had it. really had it. sorry for this bloody post for she certainly deserve this.

let the flames begin motherfucker.

say oooh lala

2009-01-14T23:18:00.000-08:00

im in school right now. and school is great. because i got friends. wheeee!

hasrul is playing warcraft and hasan step doing project mcm paham! wan trying to scrape himself out of trouble and i am style. yes. ive got my lastest warning for porjects and etp is due tmr which ive not touch them since 2008. nice.hasrul potek tak nampak screen tapi effort babe! im bored. i miss baby. i miss aliaa. yeahhhh.

hasan: eh dok what did u dream about yday?

me: oh smlm aku jadi hancock balik then aku ngan shrek jadi bestfrens!

hasan! hahaha. konek!

me: then kita naik KTM shrek jadi pillion gi rescue princess fiona.

hasan: cock bodoh!

me: hasan aku ade website nak ask you to go and see.

hasan: ape dia?

me: www.chikipedia.com

hasan: whoa best best!

out of a sudden, hasrul scremed.

hasrul: ahhhhh!! aku mati main warcraft!

me and hasan: (whispers) dia ade spasm!

hasrul: ah main crazy taxi ah!

me: aku nak tngok russel peters boleh?

then i watch russel peters.

the end

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2009-01-14T08:55:00.000-08:00

UPDATES.

everytime you breathe, im an inch closer to my KTM 09' exc200.
wait for it, wait for it.

i need to be punctual.
i need to save up for ben sherman bag.
i need battery grip for my canon eos 400d.
i need crumpler camera bag.
i need wayfarer.
-thats for the month of January.

Muhammad Aidil definitely needs 'mayday! mayday!' regards to his projects.

Together we cry.

2009-01-13T07:19:00.000-08:00

when i was a botak boy

whoa oh whoa whoa oh

i would like to thank Mr Henry Tay for successfully sending me for anger management rehab(AMR)classes 4 years ago. i 'would' have been either a terrorist/hooligan/noble prize winner or a definite average chump. but for that matter i wasn't becoming any. so thank you.

i was put up to the test this few weeks. i got the better of the EAC. EAC stands for extreme anger control. which Mrs Hudson from AMR thought. no its not about counting to 10. its about you taking better control of whats burning inside. there were 5 of us in the class. by the end of class number 4, i was the only lad there. the rest were born to use violence on all sorts of problems. (yeah one guy beat up a cat cos it stared at him, it was that bad). Mrs Hudson had a solution for me. She explore my inner senses with me. She's very encouraging and motivating. she found out something about me. something magical. something thats makes me me.
she said ' my dear boy, you dont have to worry. you're the sort of person who stands on his own two feet'. with her saying that meaning. i can be alone. eat alone. watch movie alone. and just make everyone invinsible. that was my strength. that was my getaway.

i was mugged by 12 situations this past 2 weeks. and i manhandled every single one of them. i grab them by them throats and made my stand. i wasnt giving in. i wasnt gonna blow my top. and i didnt. i didnt. i didnt. but i had my achilles heel. i had a weakness. my weakness falls through like a kryptonite. and its you.

i will posses your heart.

2009-01-04T07:06:00.000-08:00

im terrribly sorry for the lack of updates but what the heck. i surely do think no one ever visits my humble blog. if anyone do pls tag so i know. not for the fame but for the benefit for those who have flash photography in polygamland.
yes i just came back from dynamo kiev after a 2 week long stint trying to impress the scouts so they will sign me up prolly i'd carry up a sum tag worth 44million euros in times to come. back check to reality im stuck with fucking school which starts in less than 12 hours and the project due's are far more worst than death row.

i had a familyful weekend with adam and his family. thanks for the great hospitality cousin! i had a blast. i didnt sleep for approx. 36 hours now and i have four long essays to complete so my big monster in school wont shout at me or make faces cos i know she will if she knows i didnt even touch my project at all. but fuck it cos in my world, its viva la bam style! tmr would be the unholy union man. idk what to expect for all i know ; i just need my girlfriend and everything would be a-okay.

i would sincerely try and update more more more.

AIDIL IS MOTHERFUCKING ADDICTED TO MCDONALDS TWISTER FRIES!

riders on a storm

2008-12-09T06:52:00.000-08:00

im walking like a one man army fighting your shadows in my head ; if only i could say what i need to say. when the time comes. i will.

i wonder if you ever felt alone even if you're sitting next to me? i wonder if you still think about me like the way you do the first time we met? sometimes i think if im ever right for you? sometimes i fear that you feel the same way too. have you ever wonder why i feel this way? you dont even seem to try to make my day. i feel so neglected and im not needed. have you ever tried to fit into my shoes? i dont even think you'll reach the finish line where i'll be waiting where i'll be standing just looking at you. can't you see what im trying to say? im trying to make the best world just for me and you. my life turn upside down when i tried to make amends. it doesn't have to end this way. i wonder. i wonder. i wonder. (wonder-20DC)

its like should i give up or should i keep chasing pavements?

please dont spread this like a pandemic. chillax.

Karma Police

2008-12-09T05:24:00.000-08:00

karma police, this is what i get and this is what you get.

been topsy-turvy with life lately. like a test-tube, sometimes red sometimes blue. for a minute there i lost myself. extreme reading rules, i've been reading again and i feel 16 again too. just like O LEVEL times. good times. bad times. karma police. i dont know what im jabbering my clobhopper about but what the heck. randomly i should be studying right now but decided to watch the live telecast of the Indonesia against Singapore. its halftime now, yes our republic's leading by a goal to nil. keep it up lads.

i've been spending little time with babycakes and i really hope im not. have i sweets? i dont know. abit paranoid android for a second.

ash mate. we're gonna party. rock on.

as for tyler durden, mystery, papa and herbal. why the fucks you cunts bail out on zoukout?!! pity.

You know what I've learnt : Beauty is common. Something you're born with or you pay for. What count is what you make of yourself. What counts is a great outlook and a great personality.
Now i was in. I found myself a new wingman yesterday. His name was Ice. He's flying to Europe today with a girl he's dating. Ice and me, we have blood ties. Could you imagine, ICE and STYLE together dominating the world of average frustrated chumps? That is the real deal. I call this PROJECT LION LAIR. Email me mate once you're in Europe.

I am style. I am the Game.

Stylelife

2008-12-04T05:42:00.000-08:00

Again, I'm Style.

Im in Croatia right now and will be back only by next week. Hang in there.

quote

2008-11-11T05:50:00.000-08:00

all the girls standing in the line for the bathroom.

Dear Hate Taggers!

2008-11-10T06:35:00.000-08:00

DEAR HATE TAGGERS!

boy am i so fuckin glad you notice. i mean you actually took your time to notice. you're a winner. i mean im not agitated or frustrated or anything, im just entertaining your imhuman behaviour sucker! the recent post its neither for anyone out there. if you think its for you or to anyone out there ; NOT! unless you're an asshole. i mean i dont care. i fucking dont. if your childish antics are to bring me down, try harder. you're just the cowardly ball-less or clitoris-less hate tagger who dont have the guts to take me by the balls. buy one atleast, ebay sells it for lossers like you fags.

i dont fucking care and you dont have to care what my url have to be,
be it ; ideallyaidil
aidil'sgonnakickyourass
aidilkickedyourass
aidil'sapussy
ideallyshithead
ideallyfucktart

listen! I DONT CARE! OI! I DONT FUCKING CARE!

im calling out to you! come! COME AND TAKE ME BY THE BALLS! i friggin whip you back to your mommy's womb mkay.

your mindless parents never teach you any basic manners uh? you cant be 16 or 18 or even 25. still you're an asshole.
i want to know who you are. or whatever you are. please. call this number 1800-yourmomsaladybirdandyourdadsawhimpfulgay!

its me against the whole comunity of hate taggers!

Stand Up And Make Yourself Count; Say no to HATE-TAGGERS.

Yours Sincerely,
Ideally Aidil.

2008-11-09T07:20:00.000-08:00

BITCH; youre just a fuckin little prick aye! yous still fuckin mess with me fuckin life arent ya! hey best bring me down a little better now for im better then me fuckin self fuckin months ago! dont tryna fuckin toy wit me! get ya fuckin arse out me fuckin life or i'll fuckin go to yer and burn yer fuckin tweedle pigs! oi!

i had me fuckin bad day todaye. and the geezers at home want me fuckin suffer. i fuckin hope you die m'kay. its the best for our world. and move out of my fuckin life! hope you fuckin read this. oi!

pics

2008-11-08T20:59:00.000-08:00

scum

2008-11-08T20:46:00.000-08:00

ARSENAL 2 - 1 MAN UTD.

The result is wonderful. I HAD A FUCKING GOOD WEEKEND and im ready to kickstart my weekday. If you're wondering, no im not bald and yes that a fuckin old picture i took at The Singapore Airshow earlier this year. I have long and wavy hair and its messy. My mother likes me when im bald because she thinks her son's hot.(by saying that im sure i'll attract alot of hate taggers) My bestfriend Jane accidently delete all the pictures we took at the airshow but its okay but Im still angry m'kay Jane. HAHA.

sum

2008-10-31T08:00:00.000-07:00

Name: Muhammad Aidil Bin Yacob
Birthdate: 4th July 1990
Sex: Male
Race: Malay
Height: 1.8m
Weight: 60kg

10 Things To Do Before I Die
+Go to Great Britain
+Dreadlocks
+Make out with Angelina Jolie & Kate Moss
+Glastonbury
+Catch a Britpop Band Live
+Own A Car (Aston Martin)
+Quit Smoking
+KTM
+Organize A Grand Party and invite all my friends
+Drug,Sex and Rock & Roll

Toodles

ben sherman

2008-10-30T01:17:00.000-07:00

Ben Sherman ; looking good isn't important, its everything.

2008-10-30T00:59:00.000-07:00

hasan has been forcing me to quickly pass my 2B. and then one ktm200exc coming for me and for you people to drool on. watch out -early 2009 baby!

2008-10-27T21:54:00.000-07:00

dogchilds dogchilds ; hate taggers are most welcomed.

2008-10-23T06:24:00.001-07:00

just another absolute boring thursday.

a7x playing tmr. and im so sure its gonna be a blast. super blast.

times up.

Roots Rock Reggae

2008-10-22T06:46:00.000-07:00

Terribbly sorry with the lack of updates.
I had a mars-rover mission and the results have been wonderful.
Would like to thank NASA for the wonderful time.

Firmly back to earth, there are many complications from the smallest issues to the biggest i could ever possibly imagine. School's a drag. Like super seriously. Still, lets get on with life because I dont wanna be wasting my time yapping on this stuff over and over again.

Hari raya have been quite different from the previous ones. Family strains sucks. Super big time. Alot of shit stuffs have been happening in MY FAMILY and surely the Godfather himself would be extremely frustrated. I WANT TO STAND UP AND MAKE MYSELF COUNT!
That aside, still my voice won't be as loud as my asswipes uncles. You know who you are. I dont respect you guys anymore. Period.

I really miss alot of people. People i dont meet for hari raya. You guys really know who you are. Nuff' mentioning.

i would still try to update as regularly as possible; i wonder if people do read my blog. tag as you read people.

(im totally against hate-taggers ; world peace!)

la

2008-10-21T08:11:00.000-07:00

SORRY HAVE NOT BEEN UPDATING. TRYING TO BUY TIME AT EBAY.

ps; and im not dead yet.

today today is thursday thursday

2008-08-13T22:34:00.000-07:00

i had my first blood donation today. and im friggin proud of myself. woots. it really feels great. i wonder why. maybe its the fact my blood helps in a way or another. ouhh and i like all the nurses. they're friggin friendly and gentle. i like. (for your information they're not hot and young nurses)

its nice to see the school helping out in this drive. its like everyone wants to help. and thats good. but i saw 2 teachers only. i think the sch teacher's are pussy. shucks!

Boys who keep condoms in their wallets and proudly tell you that “you never know when you might need it" are simply down right, over the moon -egoistic.Comon lad! Come that 'lucky' moment do you really think you're going to say "hold on" then whip out your wallet to get that sachet which probably is peeling, has been in there for months, sat on by your fat arse and the possibility that it’s all dried up?And even if you were in a million years, ever lucky enough to get a girl off the streets or club, to take her home for the night, do you really think you're only going to need one?Keeping it in your wallet is so uncool you dogchild.

i dont keep condoms in my wallet ; i just let it go let it flow let it snow.

Hold On

2008-07-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

There’s nothing I can say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain the tears they cry
Still you never said goodbye and now
I know how far you’d go
I know I let you down but its not like that now
This time I’ll never let you go
I will be all that you want and get my self together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life I’ll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make every thing OK
I thought that I had everything
I didn’t know what life could bring
But now I see honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
And if I let you down
I’ll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go
Cause without you I can’t sleep
I’m not gonna ever ever let you leave
You’re all I got
You’re all I want
I Know Karmas Comin To Pay Me Back
I Hurt The Sweetest Thang That's On The Map
I Got Some Things I Gotta Let Her Know
To Fix The EVERYTHING Now It's Impossible
I'll take all the beating
I'll take all the pain
I'll take all the hurtful words
I won't get irritated
Im still hopeful
Where did I go wrong?
I lost a friend
For how long I dont know
Is it too late to apologise?
No not
I've all my lifetime to mend things back
I will and I would
Those words I'll hold dearly
Trust me ; I'll hold on

Kepadamu

2008-07-22T21:11:00.000-07:00

Duduk diam tunggu dulu
Kunci mulut nanti dulu
Sebelum kau berbicara
Sebelum kau nak berkata
Cermin dulu hujung rambut
Hingga ke hujung hujung kuku kakimu
Jangan cakap lepas
Biar pandai beralas
Ada ubi ada batas
Ada hari aku balas
Hinamu hanya bias
Cercamu cuma tempias
Hari ini aku berkias
Esok lusa aku mengganas
Jangan suka jaga tepi kain orang lain
Kain sendiri yang terlondeh
Kata dulang paku serpih
Kata orang dia yang lebih
kwekk kwekk kwekk kwekk kwekk kwekk!!!
quack quack quack quack quack quack!!

I wonder

2008-06-30T08:02:00.000-07:00

I wonder if you ever felt alone
Even when you’re sitting right next to me
I wonder if you think about me
Like the way you do when you met me the first time
Sometimes I think if I’m ever right for you
Sometimes I fear that you feel it too
We’re never meant to be and
Right from the first time its not working out
Have you ever wonder why I feel this way
You don’t even seem to try to make my day
I feel so neglected and I’m not needed not even once
Have you ever tried to fit into my shoes
I don’t think you’ll ever reach the finish line
Where I’ll be waiting
Where I’ll be standing just looking at you
Can’t you see what I’m trying to say
Can’t you see what I’m trying to do
I’m trying to make the best world just for me and you
Why does it have to end this way
I’m not ready to leave you
I’m not ready to move on
It’s so unfair
My life turn upside down
When I tried to amends
It all depends on you my girl
It all depends on you

WONDER- 20DISCHANGER

a little food for thought

2008-06-08T01:22:00.000-07:00

DRAG & BRAG!

2008-06-08T00:36:00.000-07:00

Sorry mates. Its been a long time since I updated this baby.

Oh finally, EURO2008 kicks off yesterday night. Hours of fun and boisterous night to come. Yesterday was the start. I'm rooting for Germany to win, but I've been an avid France follower & not forgetting that I like Italy too ; and of course Spain but there's still the dark horses Russia. How now? URGH! Thats football mate. (I hope he'll break his leg ; and I meant Ronaldo)

School's really testing me mentally and physically. Squeezing out every ounce of energy, patience and integrity. The pure grit of pressure makes even the strongest weak. Matter fact that them teachers are forever right. Knowing their fellow Section(Shit)Heads have their back. For once, I felt that I was the punching bag. I was the bullseye. I have to give credit to Sharon Yeo, The Section(Shit)Head. She's quite a nice lady after all. Okay admitted! She's really nice and understanding. She caught me having a packet of ciggies in my shirt pocket while counselling me but she didn't rant like a bitch like the others would do. I have a secret and only she and me knows. How could is that? A fellow student and a section head sharing secrets! HAHS!

Annie Soon; I do appreciate your effort. Still, you're a bastard.

&& my dearest Zahra; I miss you la! Hope you're doing okay. Thanks for forever being there for me. I surely can't wait for your sister's photoshoot! Wooooots!!

&& to my fellow classmates. You all rocks to bits and pieces uhs! I LIKE! Our class spirit power to the climax's maximum baybeh! SA Thursday DRAGONBOAT! Means class bonding! URGH EXCITED!

&& to my Angels. You're equally missed. Really really much. Hope you guys are doing great. Charlie and Bugsly loves you guys! Muacks muacks muacks!

Grandmama, Mama Fai, Mama Mas and Ibu ; I LOVE YOU TOO ALOT ALOT ALOT!! MUAH MUAH MUAH MUAH!! Thanks for the unconditional love poured upon me.

Fathiah, thanks for the Butterflies in the tummy m'kay.Hehehehehehehehehehehehehehehehe!
You know I know. nuff said. till then..

zahra

2008-05-14T16:02:00.000-07:00

Zahra, I miss pink!
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

SHAGGED

2008-05-14T15:11:00.000-07:00

6:16AM THURSDAY MAY THE 15TH

Boy oh boy. Yesterday was suck balls. SIGH!! Had a pretty draggy day in school. Oh whats new right? Correction. School's actually alright. I dont know. Must be the weather or the f*cked up assignments and tests and ledger accounts. Urgh! FYI, its really taking a number on me already. Just barely hanging on. The food in my school is shiate. Oh please don't hog the tables if you're just gossiping or blasting that Chris Brown song sing along. MOVE! I want to eat already. YES! They hog the tables just to do that mate. IN THE CANTEEN SOMEMORE. How narrow-minded those people can be. nuff bout the drag and brag already dillyboy.

After school
Dragged my sorry ass to alot of places. Just to get this very Novel. Not just any ordinary Novel. Im just hoping it'll do wonders. First stop was MPH Raffles City Tower and to my astonishment, it wasnt there. WOOTS! Walked to Borders from City Hall. Urgh! Tell me about it. Yes yes! I actually did and when i reached Wheelock, I was rather confident that I might find that Novel there. NOT! It wasn't there either. My heart that was drenched with hopes and sweat was totally sunked low low low low. Next stop, Takashimaya's Kinokuniya. Definitely bigger and wider range of books to craps. (I'll skip that irritating part cos' I couldn't find that Novel there either) Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! It was already late. Was too engrossed that i forgot about dinner and home. The ride home was worst. Had to stand from Orchard till Choa Chu Kang. There's road hoggings here and there. F*cked! Only reached home at 9pm. Slept until now to tell you about the mishaps that happened to me the day before.
Now I'm lethargic, famished and sleepy. Thanks and school's 8 to 5 today. Great.

Its 7am now its time for me to get ready for school and continue my pursuit of finding that Novel.
till then ; i miss you. i really do.

ps; should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements even if it leads nowhere?

CLASS

2008-05-13T07:08:00.000-07:00

TO MY BLURTIFOOL CLASSMATES! PLEASE DO WHATEVER YOU LIKE WITH THIS PICTURE. YOU WANT THE REST OF THE PIX PLEASE GET IT FROM ME!

msn = daredevilboyz@hotmail.com

AND YES I LOVE YOU GUYS LA OKAY!

SENTOSA 1/5/08

2008-05-13T05:40:00.000-07:00

hello am so friggin' lazy to mouth this to words so hopefully pictures helps if it doesnt call me I'll personally tell you how much fun I/we had. Enjoy and cool drool ; urgh whatever that means.

yes I miss you more.

Like finally!

2008-04-29T07:25:00.000-07:00

Hello wonderful people.
Its been awhile since I updated this baby.
TRUST ME ; HOPEFULLY THIS POST IS MORE THAN A MILLION WORDS!

SCHOOL has been alright. New mates. Pretty cool lads and lass. Adapting to it slowly and surely. Draggy yes, dry very. Campus environment average. Atmosphere pretty okay. Friends AWESOME!! People quite friendly(I GUESS). yaddaa yaddaa yaddaa..

There's a force to be reckoned with; she's the mother of all monsters. I tremble and go jelly melly on my legs as I see her; ANNIE SOON. The motherfucker. My class advisor. SIGH! (I'm gonna scratch your car bitch).

ANGELS NEVER FAIL TO MAKE MY DAY IN SCHOOL! Cheers to Reen, Murni & Dian.
6 JAHANAM TOO!! Cheers to Adam, Firay, Wan, Hazrul, Hasan & ME!
Okay to be very fair ; CHEERS TO EVERYONE!

TODAY has been the best day in school BECAUSE we skipped that monster's lesson and went SWIMMING!!! It was really unplanned. Was so fuckin' last minute. WICKED!

suddenly a sudden stir of lazy breeze blew off in my pretty face. MEANS = LAZY MOOD!!

sigh

2008-04-23T05:33:00.001-07:00

I've been really busy lately. Would find time to update.
Thanks.

2008-04-09T15:06:00.000-07:00

I CANT WAIT FOR THE WEEKEND.
Party/Adam's Birthday Bash!

random

insomnia

2008-04-09T14:56:00.000-07:00

my insomnia is killing me.
time 5.57am.
please please please i need sleep.

anyways,Champions League Update.
Manchester Utd 1 - 0 AS Roma
Barcelona 1 - 0 Schalke 04

i thought this was our time;another season without silverware I suppose

Yesterday was pure heartbreak!

2008-04-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

POST ARSENAL-LIVERPOOL ROLLER-COASTER RIDE!

Had a very thrilling,enthusiastic time watching the match @ KEDAI KOPI! -___- But the coffee shop got big flat screen tele okay!

Elyas kental don't wanna follow us. Spoil sport la you! Thanks Asrul and Ashraf for the awesome yet heartbreaking night(for i am an Arsenal supporter).SIGH!

Memorable quotes from yesterday night

'lu punya lancau pergi potong uh'-Ashraf

'ini kalau tempat Hong Kong tangan kene potong sial!'-Asrul

'chibai uhs! cam mana Arsenal boleh kalah eh!'-Aidil

'WALAU WEH JIALAD(gerrard)!KANINA BUI!'-coffee shop apek

Kecoh gila per! I LIKE!

im a true gooner; Arsenal for life.

NOT FOR SALE & NEVER FOR RENT!

2008-04-09T08:37:00.000-07:00

FAMOUS STARS & STRAPS!

NOT FOR SALE!

Silat

2008-04-09T07:35:00.000-07:00

Silat performance ; Aidil Firdaus & Iskandar. (Silat Seni Gayong Pasak Singapura)
Armed Combat(Pisau Satu) - Aidil & Firdaus
Unarmed Combat(Kunci Mati) - Iskandar & Firdaus

ENJOY!

Arsenal lost

2008-04-09T02:21:00.000-07:00

Arsenal lost but they were obviously and definitely the better team. Well done scousers; DIVE TO WIN WITH RYAN BABEL.

NO MOOD!

Arsenal VS Liverpool Trilogy - The Finale

2008-04-08T00:18:00.000-07:00

Arsenal will definitely beat them Liverpool tonight. Sorry scouser. We're too much better for you to handle. You got El Nino Torres ; WE got Uno Mondo Fabregas. You got Captain Fantastic Stevie G; WE got Willy Gallas.

RAFA-LUTION my ass!

It's time for WENGER-NIHLATION!

ARSENAL 2 - 0 LIVERPOOL (my prediction)

Wet Words For A Wet Tuesday (Wonder)

2008-04-08T00:06:00.000-07:00

I wonder if you ever felt alone
Even when you’re sitting right next to me
I wonder if you think about me
Like the way you do when you met me the first time
Sometimes I think if I’m ever right for you
Sometimes I fear that you feel it too
We’re never meant to be and Right from the first time its not working out
Have you ever wonder why I feel this way
You don’t even seem to try to make my day
I feel so neglected and I’m not needed not even once
Have you ever tried to fit into my shoes
I don’t think you’ll ever reach the finish line
Where I’ll be waiting
Where I’ll be standing just looking at you
Can’t you see what I’m trying to say
Can’t you see what I’m trying to do
I’m trying to make the best world just for me and you
Why does it have to end this way
I’m not ready to leave you
I’m not ready to move on
It’s so unfair
My life turn upside down
When I tried to amends
It all depends on you my girl
It all depends on you

wonder;20DISCHANGER

MOAN-DAY MONDAY!!!

2008-04-07T07:58:00.003-07:00

Lads and lass.
Welcome to my world.
The world where I can do anything without any of yous permission.
I won't ridicule nor curse anyone in this baby because I don't want to be as low as other people you see. It's no use. Really!!
I'm telling every single one of you out there ; 'MAKE LOVE NOT WAR'.

through your eyes; fill in my blanks

Test #1

2008-03-12T05:31:00.000-07:00

so far so good. yet still a long way to go for this baby to work, till then mateys.

Crash Test Dummy This Blog

2008-03-12T03:45:00.000-07:00

Currently having trouble with this complicated thingy.
Situation ; struggling.
Time-check ; 1847hours
Overview; Would be good if help wanted granted.

Papa 1 to Juliet , Over?